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Thursday, 28 March 2024

Good Friday

 


On Good Friday,
A solemn hush descends,
As poignant hearts reflect on the sacrifice divine,
Across religions, creeds and sects,
Love and mercy blend,
In forgiveness, humanity's design.
Today
In Mosques & Temples,
Gurdwaras & Churches
Monasteries and Synagogues near and far,
The faithful bow with reverence profound,
For on this day, beneath the evening star,
Redemption's grace in every faith is found.
For all the world, a plea for peace we raise,
To heal the wounds
That time has yet to mend,
In unity, we seek the gentle ways
That lead us to a world
Where suffering , war & strife shall end.
May Good Fridays' message ever endure,
In every heart, forgiveness to ensure.

Wednesday, 27 March 2024

VEDIKA

 ( Trying something different for a change - a piece of simple fiction) 


Part one 

  

Vedika was an orphan, barely twenty, but as ambitious as a hawk. Not a plain Jane, but not beautiful either. However, if you passed her on the street, you would probably give her a second look, because there was an earthly charm about her and oodles of personality. Although money was far from aplenty, she had the confidence of a honey badger and hence stood out in the crowd.

And when she sang informally, as she often did at parties, get-togethers, and whenever the opportunity presented itself, her voice danced like a gentle breeze, weaving tales of love and longing with every note.

Intelligent, with a fierce determination to succeed, she was a go-getter, who had decided as a young teen, that she would not endure the poverty and suffering she had seen her parents go through before they both tragically passed away- a month apart, from Covid.

She topped the final board exam in the government school in her town and was ready to take on the world. Her name in the newspapers did not come as a surprise, as she was known to be someone who navigated complexities effortlessly, her intellect illuminating paths others scarcely perceived.

College in the US had been on her mind, and she was intent on pursuing a degree in science and finally studying medicine – the exorbitant fees did not deter her. She filled in innumerable application forms, knocked on countless doors, applied for a multitude of scholarships, appealed on social media, and waited. 

She kept saying to herself that things would somehow work out as they always had in the past. Then out of the blue, she received an unexpected call late one evening. 

He called himself an Indian philanthropist from Delhi and said that her story had moved him. Then, after a brief conversation, which was just myriad questions strung together, he offered to sponsor her. She convinced herself that the few innuendos at the close were just her overactive imagination. 

The first tranche of money was in her account a week later and she busied herself shopping for necessities and packing.  Simultaneously a myriad of thoughts was plaguing her mind. 

Would she like it there?

Would she make it there? 

Isn’t four years a long time? 

And then would she continue till it was eight? 

Would the money suffice?

Would she manage to secure part-time employment?

Would she have the coveted Dr title before her name? 

How often would she manage to come back to see her old and crippled grandmother – the only relative she had left in the world- only time would tell? 

And at the back of her mind – What type of man was her benefactor? In reality, she knew nothing about him.


 Part two


The flight was scary and exciting all at once, and she took umpteen selfies on her old mobile phone with its partially cracked screen- a hand-me-down from a school pal.

And then all at once she was in college – selecting courses, settling into the dormitory, making friends, sightseeing on weekends, attending classes, and visiting the library where she spent hours pouring over manuscripts, journals, and computers.

The first eight semesters flew by in the blink of an eye, and the studies began to get more serious. She was often exhausted at the end of the day, but she was a dynamite in a small package and slacking was for the weak. 

Two years were over – she was doing fantastically well, and she missed home but there was very little time to pine.

 Assignments began to pour in, and she busied herself in the laboratories, till late at night, conducting experiments along with classmates, investigating, researching, and meticulously following established protocols, while recording data with precision. This was all new and oh-so-exciting.

Collaborating with eager and highly intelligent fellow students from various corners of the globe, she analyzed results and identified trends. She also contributed to literature reviews, synthesizing current research to contextualize findings. Additionally, she presented progress papers at meetings, fostering constructive discussions and receiving feedback for further refinement.

With relentless dedication and an insatiable thirst for knowledge, she was ascending to the summit of academic achievement, consistently outshining her peers. Her single-minded & meticulous approach to learning, coupled with a passion for excellence, propelled her to the forefront of her classes, earning admiration and respect from professors and classmates alike. Her bubbly nature endeared her to all and becoming the ‘class representative’ was an added and welcome bonus. 


 So, this was what university was all about.

 She would usually return to her room close to midnight, then rustle up a quick meal, devour the same, and crash into her bed. The intensity was, at times, a trifle overbearing and she would tear up, but a sound sleep would drive away all such emotions, and come morning, she would be raring to go once again.

She received one or two letters from her sponsor, but they were cold and impersonal. He acknowledged that she was doing well and no more. He asked her to send him photos of herself and her university and she obliged willingly, almost every month.  He confirmed that the money for her fees would continue to come in tranches as agreed with the university. 


Part three


Year three began on a sad note. A brief call from a neighbour in India reduced her to tears- her grandmother was no more.  Wrapped in sorrow's embrace, she mourned her grandmother's passing, her heart heavy with loss. Memories flooded her mind, each cherished moment a bittersweet reminder of a love now gone. The only solace was in the echo of her grandmother's wisdom. Suddenly, she felt alone and extremely vulnerable.

And then an email from her sponsor, which for some unknown reason caused her to shudder. He was arriving at the end of the month and said he was looking forward to meeting her- and there was more ……..  

She read the letter repeatedly - each word seemed to hold weight, causing her heart to race with apprehension. With each line, a sense of unease crept over her, causing her to breathe heavily. 

‘Not able to concentrate on anything during the next few days’ was putting it mildly. Suddenly she was a bag of nerves. Anxiety clawed at her chest, its grip tightening with each passing moment, and sparking unease in every corner of her mind. There was no one to talk to and friends wouldn’t understand how defenseless and unprotected she felt.

……………………………she walked out of the hotel apartment after meeting him, feeling used, shattered, and hollow- the world suddenly felt cold & unfamiliar. 

Trust shattered; scars unseen, etched into her soul forever. She wore a cloak of shame she didn't choose, and it was heavy – sadly, far too heavy for her fragile shoulders. She didn’t mention a word to anyone.

She didn’t make the journey from victim to survivor that we often read about.

She couldn't bear the shame.  

They forced her door open when she didn’t respond the following morning and she lay motionless. It was over. 

The college held a touching memorial a few days later. Her friends and a few professors were there in large numbers as she was popular and well-loved.


“Gone but not forgotten, a life stolen by vicious, cruel hands.

In your absence, our hearts ache with the pain of loss.

 Rest peacefully, dear Vedika, your spirit forever cherished in our memories."


Unfortunately, not everyone gets saved. Not everyone survives the darkness. 

Monday, 11 March 2024

Where are we headed to

 Why is everyone so ‘EXCITED’ these days? And what about all the Praise and Rewards?

Necessary?

A tad excessive?

It’s how things are done these days maybe!

Has anyone else noticed this, or have I suddenly metamorphosed into a dullard, who is incapable of any form of jazzed-up emotion or spirited zeal?

When I look around me, I see that many people, irrespective of age, size, nationality, colour, and religion, seem to be perpetually on the brink of exploding with excitement, over the most trivial of matters. Their over-exuberance and perkiness tend to exasperate me, to say the least.

They are bouncing off the walls like kangaroos on a trampoline, and are often so hyped up, that they can power a small city with their boundless energy.

It usually begins at home, where we have begun rewarding children for things like eating their food, doing their homework, waking up in time for school, being polite to family and friends, having a bath, not using foul language, not messing up their room- so on and so forth!

 Phrases I heard when in school were ‘Study hard’, ‘Make sure you copy your homework’, ‘Be a good boy today’, ‘See you look after your things’, ‘Check your test paper before you hand it in’, and the like.

Today when the child is off to school it is, ‘Have a good time’, ‘Check your test paper and ask the teacher to recheck if she gives you fewer marks’, ‘If nothing much is going on, come home early and rest- just say you are not feeling well! I somehow can't get my head around things like this.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m all for praise and so-called positive parenting, but are we doing our children a disservice? Will they next expect a prize, for merely getting themselves out of bed and a pizza treat for sitting on the toilet?

They will have no experience of failure because they’re being told all the time that everything, they do is astoundingly brilliant. So, when they do something great, do our words of praise have no effect, because they’re used to hearing it all the time?

Sadly, when these tiny tots go to school, the over-the-top admiration and excitement continue. In the present day and age, kids are so accustomed to phrases like: -
“ You’ve got it right”, “Super work indeed- I couldn’t have done it better”. “Nice going- give me a high five !” That was first class work” and words like - Outstanding, Sensational, Fantastic, and Superb, that when they do not hear them, they feel the teacher does not like them any longer! I find that utterly ridiculous and bordering on the absurd.

Even if they give a very average answer to a straightforward question, the whole class is asked to clap and applaud and the teacher prances over to exchange a personal greeting- all in the name of encouragement and well-being.

Then there are the stickers, certificates, artificial tattoos, praise boards, points for good behaviour, mascots to take home, crowns and tiaras to wear for the day, and the list goes on. Not sure where this will end, but it's certainly something that concerns me.  

Simple admonishment now seems taboo, and people get offended at the drop of a hat. We are mortified if a teacher speaks to our ward in a strict tone and one hears phrases like ‘This is insulting’, That was uncalled for, ‘My child is depressed and does not want to return to class’

Seriously?

Don’t you think we need to get the balance right once again?

A friend of mine told me how he walked into his regular coffee shop early one morning and was the very first customer.

The new barista was beaming like a kid on Christmas morning – except that this was a regular Friday!

He began with, “OMG- I have been waiting for my first customer – You are going to love your latte! I just know it! He then high-fived my friend and did a little dance, before skipping behind the counter, where he hummed a tune and pranced about like a caffeinated squirrel on espresso while preparing the coffee.

Now don’t get me wrong – the young man was probably just trying to do a good job, more so because it was his first day, and this was his first customer, but there is something undeniably absurd about being treated like royalty for ordering a cup of coffee. We both agreed that the barista was a bit over the top – after all, it was just a cup of coffee and not a cure for world hunger!

You also hear stories about the workplace, and they are even more hilarious. I have met people who would begin every workshop with ‘I am so excited to be doing this session- Are we all not happy to be here’!  I often wanted to shout out ‘NO’, but then, better sense would prevail!

Over excitement or to put it more simply- the state of being excessively stimulated, has become a pervasive aspect of modern life. It has permeated various spheres of society from schools to colleges to the workplace and personal relationships, and while excitement and enthusiasm are both positive attributes when taken to extremes, they have a detrimental effect on the physical, mental, and emotional well-being. This in turn often leads to frustration, burnout, and fatigue – something all too common in our world today. This constant overstimulation affects the immune system, sleep patterns, and our general health.

In a culture that has come to believe that busyness is equal to productivity and achievement, everyone is always ‘on the go’, and then we wonder why so many adults and children are often anxious and unable to relax.

This pressure to maintain a façade of ceaseless motivation and achievement contributes to feelings of ineptitude and imposter syndrome.

You observe closely and you will see innumerably individuals who seem compelled to constantly seek out new sources of excitement and validation to measure up to some vague unrealistic standards. This pursuit of validation erodes self-esteem and contributes to feelings of emptiness and dissatisfaction with one's own life. Mood swings, irritability, depression, sluggishness, and emotional instability follow.



Monday, 19 February 2024

Wake up and smell the roses

 WAKE UP AND SMELL THE ROSES 

(A  4.45 am weekend thought )


 Have you ever wondered why people behave the way they do?

Punching below their weight- intentionally!

 being critical and confrontational, 

While attempting to validate alleged grievances .

 

Are they just captious perfectionists? 

Entangled in mystifying arguments with themselves?

Or nebby, boisterous, busybodies- acting on a whim?

Taking it upon themselves 

 to sweep the Augean stables clean.


Why do otherwise principled, right thinking, intelligent humans, behave irrationally? 

 Totally out of sync with their habitual, ethical selves

and think nothing of it. 

Topic for a dissertation maybe?


Is it trepidation, apprehension, anxiety, over thinking?  

Is it a, ‘yeah I am awesome syndrome’?

Or could it be an inflated ego, and over estimation of self-worth?

 Is it one of these or an amalgamation of the above?


One minute all is quiet on the western front.

Music, peace, friends, laughter, tranquility-

 and then without warning,

or so much as a, ‘by your leave’, 

Or a, ‘may I please’

Pandemonium ensues  and the world knows it .

 Off they go on an irrevocable tangent.

Cursing the rainbow and cuddling serpents! 

Spiralling out of control – frenzied, raving, and ranting 

Refusing to listen to reason, logic, or even common sense. 

They become unpredictable, unresponsive, ludicrous &  irrational 

Lashing out 

And often throw the baby out with the bathwater.


Is it letting feelings override facts? 

Is it decision paralysis?

Is it perception based on biases?

Or are they just befuddled, bewildered and punch- drunk?

Zoned out Angels can start to grow horns- can’t they?

Wake up and smell the roses! 

Or the coffee if you will! 

Life is all about choices.

About fulfilling purposes and accomplishing goals 


Its an aspect of existence

Friday, 9 February 2024

The weekend is upon me

 The weekend is upon me .

What are my plans ?

Wait.

Come Monday morning 

And social media is abuzz 

With how the trendy spent their weekend

With this glorious weather in abundance 

They are sunbathing on the beach

Running marathons

Cycling fifty kilometres 

Hiking in the mountains

Driving in the 'wadis'

Ziplining 

Paragliding 

Swimming and surfing 

Parasailing 

Breaking the hundred meter barrier on the treadmill 

Doing squats, bench press and the like

Then there are the sand surfers 

Wind surfers and dune bathers

Who throw caution to the wind

And always tell you 

How they enjoy life to the fullest.

Must not forget the party people

Whose tag line is

Work hard and party harder!

Don't they all have such awesome lives? 


Now here's me

Woke up at a leisurely eight am

(I am usually up at the crack of dawn)

Sat in the morning sun with a 'cuppa'

And pondered on the joys of life


Played my guitar after quite a while

Did a spot of writing

Talked to the cat - she seemed to understand 

When I said ' stop biting me'

 And then fed our stray cat

That is attempting to adopt us.


Next on my 'to do list'

Is grocery shopping

Preferably alone

As the wife takes time to decide

Which potatoes and onions

Are better than the other!

(I am an impatient soul you see)

So I don't blame her.

Groceries over

And depending on my mood

I may rustle up a non veg dish

Quite enjoy cooking when in the mood.

Lunch and the compulsory 

Weekend snooze will follow.

The grandchildren often decend on us

And turn the house upside down!

I will wait for the evening to unfold 

And then there is the morrow.

I love my life 

And God is good.

And no

I don't wish I was twenty one again !

Sunday, 4 February 2024

On being Grapa

 Becoming a horse and then a donkey

Braying and all.


Singing songs 

Made up on the spot

About birds, babies, grandma's,  grandads, baby sisters& pretty flowers  and 

Then instructed to add in mama and

 dada too.

The cat is her favourite

So Chanel was included into the song 

as well

All to the tune of ' Are you sleeping brother John!


Having biscuits dipped into my tea

And dreading that they dissolve and fall in!

Something I don't like.


Seeing the hallroom  being upset and smiling 

Knowing fully well that it's become the norm.


Standing on one leg with eyes closed.

Hopping and catching and dreading falling !


Teaching her to be sly by giving her a piece of chocolate with the clear instructions 

" Let's not tell mama"


Cajoling her to drink water in vain

While filling myself with glass after glass

And feeling bloated.


Forcing myself to stay awake

And missing my weekend slumber.


Doing silly magic tricks  to amuse her.


Counting fingers and toes- hers and mine.


Pretending to be a blind man and scaring her in the bargain!

The fun of being ' Gra- pa' 

That's what she calls me

And I love it!

Afternoons like this are magical.

Friday, 15 December 2023

This is downright silly

 Do you ever get silly thoughts? 

Not just silly, but downright idiotic? And then do you smile and say to yourself- how stupid can I get?. And at my age!

And ever so often  we ponder over life and the years gone by ? And we  frown in utter disbelief and think again - where in Dickens' name did that absurdity pop into my brain from!.

Now you know the facts -

I am quite old and quite it being moderately modest. 

I am an educational professional -  a post graduate trained teacher, with over 40 years experience 

I have taught hundreds of boys

Almost all are well placed all over the world 

Many are married with kids

Many read my posts - I love writing 

So many have asked me when my book would be published.

Some get their teens to read what I write. The articles are often inspirational 

Some are just stories of days gone by - at times nostalgia creeps in.

I write about Allahabad, my home town, Pune my adopted home town, and now the UAE.

Plenty of articles about BISHOPS too.


Often people say my writing is motivational .....

I also give talks.... I tell myself that people listen even when they are fiddling with their mobile.

So in a nutshell - when I write- people read.

Hence the pressure is ALWAYS there to ensure that the piece of writing  makes sense .

When I speak- people listen - or at least that's what I believe.

However, last evening , from out of nowhere, I got the most unintelligent,obscure, brainless thought, which zoomed into my cranium and refused to budge.

It's embarrassing to share - so don't judge me.

YOU CAN STOP READING HERE if you have anything better to do, as this is senseless trivia and will benefit you zilch.

So.

I was thinking of exotic pets and how people keep them. 

You know, the rare species of birds, animals, reptiles etc. 

The prohibited list - whereby, if you are caught, you could be fined or jailed.

Then there are people at the other end of the spectrum who keep rats ,  and cockroaches and are proud of doing so.

Now this is the embarrassing part , so take a deep breath and read on.

I was wondering- what if I had a centipede as a pet.

Not exotic but horribly strange !

Now you may not know, but all  centipedes don't have 100 legs. They could have anything over 10. Often they have an odd number - don't ask me why, but that's what Google said. Not sure why I researched this.

And they bite - by puncturing the skin. 

Well what if I had a pet centipede and I saw it limping ?

Would it be cruel to let it suffer ? Or should I console myself by saying ' what's one broken leg when it has so many ?

Food for thought ? 

Is there any deeper meaning to this ?

Why do these senseless thoughts plague me, when there are so many intelligent things I could be doing with my time right now?

After all, I am in a profession to educate the world ! This is far from anything remotely educational. 

Dear old boys - please don't let your kids read this.

 And if they do - and ask you who I am- just say it's Santa.