She loves me - she loves me not

SHE LOVES ME – SHE LOVES ME NOT …… Am sitting here, staring at my computer, and wondering what I should do – so seeking advice from all you “worldly experts” out there. Although I am not someone to “kiss and tell”, sometimes you must say it as it is. It may sound foolish to you, but this is the way I am. I loved her with all my heart (and still do) and she reciprocated the same – there was no denying the fact that there was a very special connection. Whenever possible, I spent as much time with her, much to the annoyance of so many others. I have spent quite a tidy sum on her as well and apparently that counts for nothing in this day and age. If you talk about photographs, well, I have clicked her in every angle and yes, she is quite the poser, extremely photogenic and very pretty too. You should just have a look at some of the snaps of us together …….!! However, now it seems the honeymoon period is over – she has begun to ignore me. This is something I am not able to understand, and it pains me. She has been spurning my advances for some time now – the last month or two, to be precise. Phone calls & Whats App messages were out of the question and hence I never even went down that route. I am positive that age, job title, status etc do not matter to her either. Then what is it? Others have noticed this change too and some of them are probably happy. In fact, looking back, I presume it all started the day I lost my temper with her and made my feelings clear in no uncertain terms. I am not one to beat about the bush. Well- I think the word ‘’presume” is wrong – I am confident I can pinpoint the exact moment this all started. I was determined that she stopped her silly antics, grew up, and stopped behaving like a kid. I probably raised my voice a little too much, and looking back on my actions, I must admit – I feel I overdid the “anger” part and was wrong- after all , she was probably just having a little innocent fun. I must have come across as threatening, although that was not the intention. Nevertheless, I guess it is my fault and now I am paying the price. I did try to apologise in various ways, on quite a few occasions – my apology was not accepted. In fact, when we came face to face, she seemed to look right through me. I swallowed my pride and, as meekly as possible whispered, “sorry baby”. I could swear she sniggered and just walked away. So, no one should fault me for not trying. Coming to think of it, she has always been a trifle cold, but I guess that is her nature, which I had learned to accept over the years. I have confided in a few trusted friends, and they did say that this will blow over and she will come round – it has not happened yet. So, I have to say I am in a bit of a quandary, and not sure what to do now – cats are such lovable creatures but “Chanel”, our little bundle of joy , takes the cake where stubbornness is concerned . Let me go and search for her and see what she is doing !